We both had done the math. Kelly added it all up and... knew she had to let me go. I added it up, and knew that I had... lost her. 'cos I was never gonna get off that island. I was gonna die there, totally alone. I was gonna get sick, or get injured or something. The only choice I had, the only thing I could control was when, and how, and where it was going to happen. So... I made a rope and I went up to the summit, to hang myself. I had to test it, you know? Of course. You know me. And the weight of the log, snapped the limb of the tree, so I-I - , I couldn't even kill myself the way I wanted to. I had power over *nothing*. And that's when this feeling came over me like a warm blanket. I knew, somehow, that I had to stay alive. Somehow. I had to keep breathing. Even though there was no reason to hope. And all my logic said that I would never see this place again. So that's what I did. I stayed alive. I kept breathing. And one day my logic was proven all wrong because the tide came in, and gave me a sail. And now, here I am. I'm back. In Memphis, talking to you. I have ice in my glass... And I've lost her all over again. I'm so sad that I don't have Kelly. But I'm so grateful that she was with me on that island. And I know what I have to do now. I gotta keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?
Bulan Maret, musim backpaker, tinggal nungu beberapa hari lagi. Tahun lalu gw udah bisa keliling jawa dengan modal 550K aja. And it was epic holiday :D gw ketagihan, padahal baru pertama. hahaha Nah untuk tahun ini, gw rencanain tanggal 18 Maret nanti. Tapi start mulai malamnya. Sayang sekali untuk tahun ini gw cuma bisa backpaker selama 3 hari. Kesibukan kerja bikin waktu luang yang dulu terbuang-buang kini udah g bisa dirasain lagi. Ini pun klo ga dipaksa pasti ga berangkat. Tujuan backpaker tahun ini cuma dua aja, di dalam kota (tapi masuk pelosok kabupaten) dan kota sebelah. 1. 1. Kawasan Dolly Kenapa kawasan dolly? –ihhhh jangan-jangan mau ngapa-ngapain nih :P - Iya juga sih, udah tua gini kok kesannya gimana ya belum ngelakuin “ begituan ”. Hehehe. Tapi jangan piktor dulu, yang dimaksud “ begituan ” itu bukan sesuatu ...
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